My weekend away with Brian. And away from Leah.
Blaaaaarrrg.
Two very different sets of emotions. On one hand I'm a little giddy, packing nighties and dresses (which I'm not totally accustom to wearing) to look nice for my wonderful hubby, and enjoying the fact that I won't have to worry about getting diaper cream, snot, milk, or avocado on any of them. All the while contemplating self inflicted injuries, illnesses and circumstances which would prevent me from leaving the house/my daughter.
I feel edgy. Anxious. Borderline fearful.
I KNOW.
SHE WILL BE FINE.
But NO ONE can do my job, the way I do it.
And that is how I want it done.
When I first posted about this you all commented about how the days leading up to it would be the hardest. And damn it, you're so right. So when I read your words I made a mental note to be especially kind to myself this week. And watch for the crazy to creep in. But it caught me anyway. I've been what you might call, difficult, all week. (There were some outside factor s too). But mostly, I've been cranky. Unreasonably cranky.
I decided after all that I will go with Brian the full two and a half days. We leave Friday around noon. And return Sunday afternoon...
I can do this.
I can do this.
I can do this...
Right?
4 comments:
YAY!!! You are going to have SOOOO much fun. Enjoy all of the time mingling without wrangling a toddler and getting drunk and having sexy time with your husband without being worried about an early morning hangover with a demanding kiddo around. Have fun!!! You will miss her, but it will ultimately be awesome, and the look on her face when she sees you on Sunday afternoon will be AWESOME.
You CAN do this! It will be great! Leah will be fine, beyond find.
I recently read this awesome book called Perfect Madness about this parenting anxiety everyone has these days because of societal pressures to be EVERYTHING all the time, when the truth is, no one can be everything to their child all the time. It really opened my eyes to some things and ultimately has made me a much better parent because I'm less anxious about everything. Anyhoo, go easy on yourself--you'll return refreshed and absence makes the heart grow even fonder :)
You can definitely do this!!! You deserve this time away - you've earned it! And don't feel bad about feeling bad. It's all very normal, and ok. You will have a great time, and Leah will be fine!!!
You can do it!
Truth be told, I am really envious. I know I would miss my sons if I went away for an entire weekend with my husband, but I know at the same time that it would be great and that it's something we won't be able to do for years, if ever.
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