Annnnnd that's my problem.
Here I go...
I love food. So, so much. Good day or bad, it's a perfect reason to cook up something comforting. Ten minutes in my kitchen is really much harder on my diet than a half hour at a Burger King. Okay maybe that's not a fair comparison. Fried food is not my problem. I'd pick a wheel of double cream Brie over a plate of fries ANY DAY. Seriously, cheese is one of my weakest spots. Oh and Peanut Butter. I actually don't really care for, nor do I visit fast food places often. So other than my Peanut Butter and cheese habits, portions are my other problem. I'm guilty of eating when I'm not hungry, just cause it sounds good. An extra scoop of rice, so I don't have to dirty a Tupperware container? Why not.
So yes my weight has always fluctuated a bit. In the two years after we got married, I gained a good 35 pounds. It wasn't because I stopped caring - like I didn't have to try anymore because I was married. I actually call it Happy Fat. I was loving life, and cooking my way in to oblivion. Then I joined Weight Watchers and lost 45 pounds. Got back to my high school weight. And I felt really, really good. I gained a little of it back but lost it again in the spring of 2007 because we were going to try for a baby. And when it didn't happen right away things pretty much started to go down hill from there. The depression and heartache I endured was too much at some point and I turned back to food to make me happy.
But I'm ready to do something about it now. And it's not really about the way I look. It's more about the way I feel. I don't feel as good as I do when I'm eating better and exercising regularly. So last week, I started Weight Watchers. Again. And it's going alright. I think the first week is one of the toughest - for me. Getting used to planning every single meal and sticking with the smaller portions is not easy. But I drink my weight in water to avoid an empty stomach, and I stick with my motto for this point in my diet: If you're not hungry; you're not doing it right... A month from now, the portions I'm eating will be more than enough, and making the right choices won't be so difficult. I know that once I loose the amount of weight I want to, I can go back to eating cheese and peanut butter in moderation, and as long as I keep exercising regularly. I used to hate running, but now I love it. It really clears my head.
Anyway, I went in to get weighed this morning. My first week I lost 4.7 pounds at home or 2.8 pounds on the WW scale (with all my clothes on). And if you look up and to your right, you'll see my new weight loss ticker. Just to keep me in line.
Here I go...
26 comments:
I've weight cycled my entire life. Heavy one year, skinny the next, heavy the next. It's rediculous!! I'm on my way down once again. 21.6 down in 2 months. Good luck!! I'm going to put a ticker on my page too!
I have always struggled with my weight. Prior to being unable to conceive, being fat has been my biggest failure in life. (I have another blog I write which is totally about my efforts at losing weight and getting organized.) Like you, I love food, especially cheese, and have a problem with portion control.
I have had great success with Weight Watchers. It is one of the most sensible, easy-to-follow programs around--doctors have recommended it to me--and it works!
Good luck in your weight loss efforts. Maybe you will inspire me.
I'm also not a big fast food fan at all but I'm a constant snacker. Like you, I prefer my kitchen to McDonald's. And sometimes I just eat because, well, it just sounds like a good idea- nevermind the fact that I'm not the least bit hungry (confession: I am doing that right at this very moment). Anyway, good for you for holding yourself accountable and getting back on track. Good luck.
We all have our weaknesses..mine are sweets!
Congrats for taking care of yourself!
Yay, yay, yay! Go Melissa! Cheering you on every pound off!
Weight loss has been on my mind a lot, too, these days. I completely stopped running. And I used to be a part of Weight Watchers.
Hearing you blog is inspiring. I feel like maybe infertility is something outside my control, but maybe diet and exercise is something I can.
I'm really impressed Melissa! It is so hard to diet, and I understand the difficulty of limiting portions. I just went out to lunch with Stephen and ate my lunch (same size as his) twice as fast. You are right on about "If you're not hungry; you're not doing it right'. So True. I think there are too many people that assume they should still feel satisfied on a diet. It just doesn't work that way but the pay off is more than worth it. Good luck and I know you'll do great!
CHHHEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! I love cheese too...almost all kinds of cheese. Its a little piece of heaven. :)
Ah, food. One of the few true comforts. So proud of you for getting on the wagon. Wishing you luck!
Good for you! I gained about 25 lbs over the past few years and it sucks...you just feel so much better when you can fit into your old clothes! You're right about running, it's a great way to get rid of all the negative energy! Keep up the good work!
Awesome start! I keep making the same excuses and need to stop, like right now.. or maybe Monday. ;)
I am right there with you. I have tried to lose 15 pounds for three years now. This time, however, I am serious. I am not spending $$$ on egg donor and not be in my best possible shape. If you need a weight loss buddy, I can be there. I am traveling for work this week and have managed workouts 3/4 days. The free pizza lunch is killing me though! Let's lose this weight.
Melissa--I think having that right mindset and being ready to work towards your healthy living goals is important in having success. If you are not ready or your heart is not in it, then the efforts may suffer. I wish you luck in your plan! I can understand the part that it is not just loosing the weight, but your body feeling good. I had gained 35 pounds while trying to get PG and have since lost the weight. My no-no's are doughnuts and ranch dressing. But, I am one who loves McDonald's...oh, sweet double cheese burger and fries!
Awesome that you are taking up running! And I am totally there with how it clears the mind. I find it helps to sign up for a race now and again to have something to work towards and then once it is done, it is another success. I am not fast, but it is about crossing the finish line!
Good luck!!! You are off to a great start!
Wow good luck Melissa! You sound so determined. Very inspiring indeed. Chocolate has always been my downfall and comfort eating has def been increasing the last 2 years - congrats on taking control of it. Wishing you all best, always. xx
Congrats on the weight loss!! 2.8 lbs already is awesome. My sister and mom have used WWs for years and swear by it. They both look fantastic. Good luck, I know you can do it!!
Melissa,
Good for you for facing your weaknesses (Say "Cheeeeese!") and biting the bullet.
I too have been doing WW, lost 3 lbs over the last 2 weeks. I weigh in on Thur, too. You've inspired me to post my progress on my blog... since I'm on an IF break, might as well!
How the hell can I hold you accountable when I made my own fucking resolutions and haven't stuck to them??? (if you don't remember, cutting out cursing was one of them!)
I need to get back on the WW train myself. But with everything that has been going on, I keep finding myself indulging in comfort foods. No bueno. Maybe you getting on track will inspire me too. Right after I finish that bag of malted milk Easter eggs.
Fellow Melissa who fell off the resolution wagon. I was doing well, exercising every day. And then the oral surgery threw that off. And now I haven't exercised since March 15th due to work stuff. But tomorrow I am making time. Wishing you good thoughts for getting back on the wagon.
Woo HOO! You go girl! I think you already look fantastic, but can understand the desire to tone up and get in shape.
Um.....does Weight Watches allow delicious wine and bruschetta, in moderation? ;-) I hope so! (see you next Friday!)
Impressive stuff! You sound like you're going into it with great plan and attitude so I know you'll kick some lb. butt!
p.s. peanut butter and cheese are my friends
Hey, I definatley don't think you should be hard on yourself for falling off the weightloss wagon. You can only tackle these things when you're good and ready so if now feels right to you then thats awesome. You're right, its not so much about the weight itself, its about doing things that make you feel better about yourself. We're all here to cheer you on and it must be nice to be able to focus on something that isn't completely infertility based for a while.
M, I am seriously impressed that you already lost some #'s in your very first week! Whoo-hoo!!
Best of luck with the weight battle! I also love food and have a weakness for good cheese, especially since moving to the Bay Area where we can get so much amazing cheese! I went through the whole weight loss thing about 7 years ago, losing about 30 pounds. It was tough, but I was amazed at how I could actually get used to and enjoy a different way of eating.
Thanks for stopping by my blog! My acupuncturist (KB) is at Lokahi acupuncture in SJ--it would be really cool if we went to the same one! I didn't do much research to find her, so sometimes I wonder if I should have. But I love her, so I don't want to switch.
Good for you! I'll be joining you in 2 weeks when I get the go-ahead...I've got about 30 lbs left to go to be happy. Oh, and a lot of flab.
First off- you are hilarious!! I would totally cut a bitch for those Boston Market sides also. mmmmm...I could eat my weight mac n cheese if my stomach didn't explode. :)
I get "happy fat" also- it is so very frustrating huh? Kinda like that Barenaked Ladies song "Shes like a baby, I'm like a cat- when we're happy, we both get fat"
:)
Good luck on your weight loss- it is hard...but every # counts!!
(Over from ICLW early- I am going to be outta town so didn't put myself on the list)
I know how hard it is to get going on the weight loss, so much luck and determination to your success.
That being said, I've made piece with the idea that I'm always going to be a fat girl, wear a plus size and enjoy the hell out of my food.
I'm going to try to do less of the food part (and I unfortunately discovered a recipe for biscuits made from heavy cream that are begging me to make them every damn day they are so good and easy) but I hear you on the getting the mindset and exercise in line as well.
Good luck!!
Sounds like you are already off to a great start! I'm just glad Cadbury mini egg season is over for another year so I don't have to battle that love/hate affair for awhile. Cheese. Mmmmm. Peanut Butter. Mmmmm. Is it bad that I eat it straight out of the jar and add Hershey syrup for my own little peanut butter cups...on pretty much a daily basis?
Crap, it's already April. Swimsuits are just around the corner. I need to get on this bandwagon too!!
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