Friday, March 11, 2011

Too Close For Missiles, Switching To Guns

While I haven't exactly hung my hat on the idea that aspirating my cyst will be the answer to my prayers,  the concept of it getting me to the point of finally being able to start stims and actually finish this cycle has at the very least, appeased the impatient foot stomping 12 year old in me.


This week began promising when I noticed spotting first thing Monday morning. Though it was pretty light, it seemed promising enough. By yesterday morning however, it was gone. Since my lining was at 4mm last Thursday, part of me wonders if that was a period... Dr.3 said nothing of spotting, he specifically told me to look for a period, so who knows. I sent my nurse an email to let her know about the spotting and to ask if there's anything I need to know or do for prep. I'll go in Sunday around 11:30am, and pray that this will be the nail in that whorebag's 27mm coffin. 


In the mean time, Brian and I have taken our first tiny step towards Foster Adoption. The county we live in holds orientations twice per month, so we agreed to go to the first one in April and I emailed an RSVP for that date as well as requesting an information packet. I don't know how close we are to moving forward, or if I/we are even 100% ready to move in that direction yet. Part me thinks it's my way of giving this cycle a hardy Johnny Cash-esque, middle finger coping with the monumental disaster that is our first attempt at IVF. And a small part of me sees our four year ttc anniversary steadily approaching and can't imagine drinking my way through one more of them without having something solid in the pipeline. It's just fucking time for us to be parents. I can't take this limbo shit anymore. 


Anyway. Wish me luck on Sunday. And if you've been through it before I'd be grateful for any tips or warnings. Thank you all again for your unwavering support. I'm just so grateful for all of you. 

10 comments:

MyTwoLines said...

Well I have no experience with cyst aspiration but have no doubt others will weigh in with good info! I'm so sorry this has dragged on so long---I so hope this does the trick. Hang on tight, the ride is never smooth eh?

Alex said...

I hope this cycle is over soon! And the cyst aspiration may be the right thing to do...

And good luck learning about Foster Adoption! I know nothing about it, but it's very exciting!

gailcanoe said...

Good luck! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
I love the way you wrote "appeased the impatient foot stomping 12 year old in me." I have one of those inside me, too! :)

Jem said...

Got no ass-vise for you. Do know that I'm rooting for you! Dr. 3 will take good care of you!

Hillary said...

I seriously cannot believe what has happened with that cyst. I know I have said it before, but that sucks and I am SO SORRY. I hope you will get to move forward very quickly after the aspiration....and that the rest of your cycle IS smooth sailing.

I, too, am going to an adoption seminar next weekend. I can relate to what you wrote so much - we have one cycle left, too, but I just need to do something and feel rather hopeless about the cycle.

Obviously, I know very little about adoption or foster to adopt, but I have read a few rather negative stories about county foster orientations. I have made *tiny* steps to look into foster to adopt here, and found a non-profit that works with the county to place children but has a lower social worker to foster parent ratio, etc. We know three families who have gone through them rather than the county and had wonderful experiences. So...all that to say, I would encourage you to see if there is an organization like that in your area?

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S said...

I'll be thinking good thoughts for you on Sunday. I hope this is what you need to get back on track with your IVF cycle.

I think it's great that you are learning about foster adoption! I would love to go that route, but my hsuband won't even to go an informational session about it because he is totally opposed to doing it. :-(

Marissa said...

Awesome!

I bled a little following my aspiration, but I started my period that night, so I can't for sure say what all was what. For me, it wasn't bad at all. I didn't go back to work, but I probably could have. Instead I sat around and watched a movie and then made dinner. I didn't need any post-op medications, though they offered them rather freely.

It was such a relief to me knowing that my cyst was GONE.

Ceejay said...

I currently have about 4 friends who have gone down the fost-adopt route (in Santa Clara county) over the past couple of years. One of the families got a sibling pair last fall, and the other three are in various stages of getting licensed. It's been so interesting and inspiring to watch them--especially the family that now has kids they're in the process of adopting. I really hope you feel like the process could work for you, too, though I know some people are definitely not cut out for it.

And hang in there on the cycle. Glad you're feeling at least a little better!

cdg said...

wishing you the very best of luck!!!!! I will be thinking of you on sunday.

Jessica said...

I hope everything went OK today!!