I think we've all been guilty of this from time to time. I'm sure I may have even admonished a few of you for what could be considered abuse. It's impossibly inviting, always available, and tremendously informative. It's Google. I am addicted to Google. Dear God, someone please remove it from my web browser, my iPhone, my home page, IF I SEE IT I'LL USE IT!!!
Today was exciting. And then sad. And then empty, because Brian forbid me to use google for the next few weeks. It was exciting because our "cargo" has been transferred to the clinic, without incident. They gave the count of about 60 Million per vial. But supposedly the thawed count will be lower. I spoke to my IUI coordinator today and she said that they will do a complete analysis before the IUI so that I have numbers to obsess over during my tww. That's where google comes in. It looks like our odds are significantly decreased with unmedicated cycles. We are looking at a 6 - 16% chance this cycle, depending on the final thawed counts. Seeing those numbers makes me want to call the clinic and order more vials, because they say it's four to eight cycles to get pregnant. Right now we have enough for three. Annnnd here comes the sad. It probably won't happen this cycle. I know it's early to seem like I'm losing hope. But I just need to be realistic about it.
I'm still happy that we are moving forward. I guess I just need to keep saying that. WE ARE MOVING FORWARD. Even if it doesn't work this time. We're doing something about it.
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MELISSA- KNOCK IT OFF! Let yourself be excited. 16% is a heck of a lot more than the 0% you've had going for you lately. I am so darn excited for you, I can't bear it if you are going to be pessimistic. The only number that matters is the one on the beta test in about two weeks. Remind yourself of that. And you are almost there!!! Your ticker is building the anticipation for me. I wonder every day- will it be in two days? or three? or less? or more?
(BTW- if you want to get around the google ban, he never said someone ELSE couldn't google for you. There's your loophole. Hee hee.) Can't wait for O day!!!
Ok, I'm super-guilty of Google addiction so I agree with Brian. Stay off it.
My OB didn't seem that bothered when I proposed doing unmedicated IUI and our count was much, much lower than what you have.
And not to be too hopeful but remember that it only takes one :-)
I'll be sending them directions so they find your egg first time round, ok?
HA. My husband has gone beyond and just banned me from blogs. And as we've moved closer to DIUIs I've been banned from googling anything to do with DI too! I guess it's nice we have hubby's who want to try to keep us a little bit sane!
I'm so excited for you. I'll be thinking about you guys all weekend and sending good relaxy-vibes. It sounds like you have a good itinerary, but if you find yourself at a lull at any point and need comic (or cynical) relief, you know who to call. xoxo
I'm an obsessive googler as well. I've never actually freaked out about anything until our baseline scan a few days ago when I proceeded to ask about 67 questions to the nurse in the room... "But google says..." "And I saw on google..." :)
I don't think I could have said it much better than Katie did, so I am glad that she beat me to it.
I completely understand your need for self preservation, but I do feel that you should allow yourself at least a glimmer of hope - this is the best chance that you have had in a long time. Our group of friends has had some good luck in recent months on first IUI attempts. Don't worry about buying any more until you have to because there is a good chance you might not need it. Can't wait for you to O and get this show on the road!
I am totally addicted to google as well. Indulge. Do whatever it is you need to do to be okay. Only you know what that is.
It can work - I know it is not a great success story since it ended with a loss but I did get pregnant with the first natural DIUI. I think his original count was like 60 or 70 M and after wash his total motile count - which is the only count that matters really was 19 M. Anything post wash over 10 is considered good.
Keeping it all crossed for you.
I agree with Katie, 16% is about what my chances were WITH a medicated cycle because of my egg issues. It may not happen this cycle but that doesn't mean it can't! I think you still have a great chance. And 16% is almost what a "normal" person has each month and think about how many "normal" annoying girls we hate get preggo on the first try! Woohoo, it's almost here and I can't wait!
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