Okay. It's starting to get to me. I was so proud of myself the first week. I wasn't bothered by my tww in the least. But this point in my cycle is when the supposed "magic happens". IF a little embryo is able to implant, it will be in the next few days. And the idea that I will know our fate in less than a week is simply maddening. I hesitated even publishing this post, because acknowledging my anticipation is only going to fuel the fire.
Now all those tww's that I spent googling early symptoms is coming back to bite me - I suddenly wish I didn't know any of them. At least I know I can't fall back on the old sore boobs bit. Mine start getting sore the day after I ovulate. Yeah, that's just as much fun as it sounds. UGH.
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Totally get where you're at right now. No matter how hard I try I always end up there too. It's a total bitch, what can I say? Apart from try and keep your mind pre-occupied with other things 24-7, even though that is nigh on impossible - ah the joys of the TWW! Hoping this TWW ends with happiness!
I do the same thing...although i know there is pretty much no chance we can get pregnant on our own....i still have hope....
Oh, Melissa, I feel your pain. I tell you, 8DPO is always the tipping point for me. 1-7DPO I'm pretty successful feeling patient, but stupid 8DPO always makes me think about what could possibly be going on, I start analyzing my temps and signs, comparing them to the last million cycles, I start to look at due dates and quickly slap myself on the wrist... it's so bad! Hang in there... I wish I could tell you that it's gonna get easier, but...... I don't like to lie ;) Let us both just nap off the next 5 or so days...
Good luck during your 2ww.
Stopping by for an ICLW visit...
No. 95: The Unfair Struggle (male-factor infertility, good friends, neighborhood rumblings)
Hang in there Melissa- you're over halfway!
June 28th, eh? Have that date marked out for me too...if I can hold of getting AF till then, I would go for a blood draw + POAS as well!
Good Luck to you!
ICLW!
i'm on your exact cycle with #1 IVF and dying. dreaming about babies & then low betas. maybe I should start a blog to waste my time. good luck to you.
Melissa - I was grabbing my boobs constantly in my 2ww after my IUI. They weren't very sore (compared to other cycles I've had) so I had given up hope. They would even fluctuate to the point where I thought they were fading away and this continued for the next few weeks (each time I was convinced I was miscarrying). I know you won't be able to help but do "the grab" but know that everyone's 2ww symptoms are completely different and in some cases, non-existent. You may feel just the same as you do every cycle before AF comes which is what I felt. We are all rooting for you!!! I can't wait to find out your news and I'm sure it is complete torture to have to wait another week!!
I know I've said this to you before, but the 2ww is pure torture anyway, but especially after starting a new type of treatment when you have renewed hope. I remember going from SO hopeful and optimistic during week 1 to SO sure it wasn't going to work in week 2. And you know how it turned out for me. I hope the same happens for you!!
The 2ww is the WORST. Hang in there!
ICLW
Hi Melissa, thank you so much for stopping by my blog. I want to return a squishy hug and I am sending you very very sticky vibes in your direction!! The 2ww is just pure madness, I hear you on that! Not long now. Love, Fran
*ICLW*
2WW is a bit of a misnomer, because the first week is no big deal but as beta day approaches, each day often gets harder. Good luck getting through it, and best wishes with the cycle.
Happy ICLW!
Happy ICLW!
The Two Week Wait is torture! I hope the next week FLIES by for you!
I read your post below and I really admire how you chose to go with a donor. I also admire how your going to raise your baby knowing all you do. You're going to be a WONDERFUL mom and hold your baby in your arms.
*HUGS*
Truly - this is the worst part of the 2ww for me. My hope turns into major skepticism, positivity into negativity - I hope that the weekend flies by and that you have great news next week.
Sending you some good 2ww thoughts!
I read your old 100 things post (I love to read those things!) and I donated my wedding dress, too. I cried when I put it in the box, I cried when I took it to the post office and I cried on the phone to my mom for about an hour afterwards. Now I try to convince everyone to do it.
Good luck starting the TWW. I get sore BBS as well the day after I ovulate. I pretty much get every pregnancy symptom known (and I really don't think it is all in my mind) the week before AF arrives. Gotta love it!
I hear you!!! I wish I didn't know all the early pregnancy symptoms either. I obsess over everything in the TWW and stare at my chart for hours on end. The hope is killing us all. Good luck with your TWW. May it be your last one!!
~ICLW~
I completely understand what you mean- google is great but sometimes, information is not our friend...hang in there....only a few more days...
just realized we were diagnosed at the same time...i hope this works for you....2 failed cycles with donor sperm was too much for me to bear....
I usually fall apart between 11 and 13 DPO. I agree that the second half of the 2ww is a PITA.
ICLW #52
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