Raise your hand if you've been lapped by The Duggars more than once. You have GOT to be fucking kidding me.
Anyway, back to me and my bad attitude. Boo to round two!!! Third time better fucking be the charm, is all I'm sayin'. So contrary to the sad, sad picture I posted of Parker, I'm actually pretty pissed off. But the kind of pissed off that builds into sheer drive. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing I suppose, all of our laundry is done. Brian should be thrilled about that. But what do I do with this extra motivation? If motivation were enough to get me pregnant I'd be keeping pace with the Duggar's by now. The reality is I don't have any control of the outcome of my next IUI.
The moment I found out it didn't work I decided to create a new plan. I'm going to loose some weight! I proclaimed. I'll skip this cycle and shed what I can in the next six weeks! After I posted the results of my Big FAT Failure 2.0, I got a phone call from Teresa to see how I was doing. I told her I was frustrated, but that I had devised a plan. This is where she eloquently and ever-so-gently pointed out that, my "new plan" was actually my "new way of coping". I was trying to take control of something in this situation.
I had my first acupuncture appointment this morning since CD1. Ms. B looked at me with empathy and said, "Well you didn't expect to be one of those lucky bitches who gets it on the first try, did you?" I quickly reminded her that this was my second try and she succinctly blurted out "THIRD TIMES THE CHARM!" with a smile and patted the table. She'd better be right. Ms. B told me it couldn't hurt to loose a few pounds, but that my specific weight will not prevent me from getting pregnant. I don't need to skip a cycle to watch my diet, but nothing drastic. No crash diets, no death defying workout plans. I realize she is not my RE, but I still trust her opinion. So she plans to be a little more aggressive with this next cycle. I don't actually know how much more aggressive you can really be with acupuncture, but again... I trust her opinion. I'll begin a new vitamin and herbal suppliment regimen. She also doesn't think I should try a cycle with clomid, or injectables just yet. She says my body is doing the work, we're just waiting for the fireworks to happen.
Dr. RAWKS did tell us it would take up to six tries (gulp). I'm just so tired of waiting. I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANYMORE. I've waited long enough! Haven't we all? I don't want to skip a cycle, and neither does Brian. We're going to move ahead this month. We won't be changing up the protocol much. My body is doing what it is supposed to. Now if only that fucking egg and sperm will do what it's supposed to!!!
Anyway, back to me and my bad attitude. Boo to round two!!! Third time better fucking be the charm, is all I'm sayin'. So contrary to the sad, sad picture I posted of Parker, I'm actually pretty pissed off. But the kind of pissed off that builds into sheer drive. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing I suppose, all of our laundry is done. Brian should be thrilled about that. But what do I do with this extra motivation? If motivation were enough to get me pregnant I'd be keeping pace with the Duggar's by now. The reality is I don't have any control of the outcome of my next IUI.
The moment I found out it didn't work I decided to create a new plan. I'm going to loose some weight! I proclaimed. I'll skip this cycle and shed what I can in the next six weeks! After I posted the results of my Big FAT Failure 2.0, I got a phone call from Teresa to see how I was doing. I told her I was frustrated, but that I had devised a plan. This is where she eloquently and ever-so-gently pointed out that, my "new plan" was actually my "new way of coping". I was trying to take control of something in this situation.
I had my first acupuncture appointment this morning since CD1. Ms. B looked at me with empathy and said, "Well you didn't expect to be one of those lucky bitches who gets it on the first try, did you?" I quickly reminded her that this was my second try and she succinctly blurted out "THIRD TIMES THE CHARM!" with a smile and patted the table. She'd better be right. Ms. B told me it couldn't hurt to loose a few pounds, but that my specific weight will not prevent me from getting pregnant. I don't need to skip a cycle to watch my diet, but nothing drastic. No crash diets, no death defying workout plans. I realize she is not my RE, but I still trust her opinion. So she plans to be a little more aggressive with this next cycle. I don't actually know how much more aggressive you can really be with acupuncture, but again... I trust her opinion. I'll begin a new vitamin and herbal suppliment regimen. She also doesn't think I should try a cycle with clomid, or injectables just yet. She says my body is doing the work, we're just waiting for the fireworks to happen.
Dr. RAWKS did tell us it would take up to six tries (gulp). I'm just so tired of waiting. I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANYMORE. I've waited long enough! Haven't we all? I don't want to skip a cycle, and neither does Brian. We're going to move ahead this month. We won't be changing up the protocol much. My body is doing what it is supposed to. Now if only that fucking egg and sperm will do what it's supposed to!!!
On that note. Here is a picture that better represents Parker.
Our Monkey-dog in all of his cantankerous splendor.
14 comments:
The news about the Duggars made me want to throw up and slap someone all at once. Ridiculous!!
I'm a big believer in acupuncture so I will be interested to hear how things go this next cycle.
Definitely tired of waiting here too - I'm sorry that last cycle didn't result in good news - but sending good thoughts and wishes for your next one!
Keep me posted on the acupuncture - I had 55 needles in me the other day!! :O
How funny that you're on the weight loss bandwagon too! Ever since my failure and the impending 3 month break, I've decided to focus my attention on fewer calories and more exercise! It must be the popular way to cope with such sadness. Screw the Duggars. Ugh.
I'm glad you're in the state of mind where you're kickin' ass and takin' names! You WILL beat this. I know it.
And even though I'm scared to death of needles, this Ms. B character intrigues me. =) We'll have to chat about her tomorrow.
Oh yeah. And the Duggars can piss off. I mean, seriously. That looney woman is going to have a GRANDCHILD who is older than her youngest child. Wrong wrong wrong.
Sigh. I am so sorry.
My original RE told me to try up to six times natural - sorry, I did not have the patience for that. We did two natural - miscarriage on the first one - and clomid on the third.
Do whatever you are comfortable with doing.
Love the picture of the dog!
Yes, the Duggars have passed me more than once... they've actually been pregnant 4 times since we started TTC. Jerks.
You reminded me that I need to make my acupuncture appointments! I hope that this cycle's the one!
The Duggar thing made me want to puke, I almost threw my computer at the wall reading her comments. Ugh. I'm sending you lots of good thoughts and best wishes for this next cycle. I've gotten the same way after another BFN, instead of getting really sad, I get proactive. I think it's a better way to get rid of the hurt. Best of luck with the acupuncture, I think it's a wonderful idea.
Good for you for going for it again. I truly hope the saying holds true - 3 times a charm.
Hope our cycles stay on sync, it's nice to have someone who's at the same place at the same time.
More waiting....I'm sorry. :-(
The Duggars are truly irritating to me. I feel like that lady has a mental condition for wanting to be pregnant that many times. I'm sure many would disagree with me but it's just my opinion. I love what your acupuncturist said. I think however that after all you've been through you deserved to be one of those "pregnant bitches" that gets knocked up on the first try, but the 3rd would be pretty sweet too. I also hate those girls so they are in the same category in my eyes ;) Go cycle #3!!!!
I have to admit I hadn't even heard about the Duggars until today. I saw a headline about 19 kids, and now this reference. In any case, I'm sure they've lapped me PLENTY of times!! I'm so sorry this last cycle didn't work for you. I've been thinking about getting back on the acupuncture train as well. All the best...
the duggars can bite my ass.
so sorry that this cycle didn't work out for you and Brian. i am a very big believer in acupuncture. they typically say 3 months of treatment to really get the full effect, i hope it is just what you need...
thinking about you...
btw - your dog rocks!
Rolling my eyes at the Duggars. Bite me.
I'm on this weight loss kick too...we'll see how it goes.
I like your acupunterists attitude.
(Hand raised) For cryin' out loud, right? You'd think by now her stuff would be too stretched out to even function.
Your friend Teresa sounds like a great friend. And I like your acu lady. It is amazing how much they can tell about your body. I think it is really encouraging that she doesn't think you should move on to a medicated cycle yet and says your body is doing the work.
P.S. I like your "attitude"- but I prefer to call it spunk. :)
I'm sorry that your second IUI didn't work. I am on my third...and it does suck!! I hope third times a charm too!! Hang in there!!
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