I swear it's coming faster and faster every month. Especially when I don't have anything remotely exciting to post about. I am 12dpo/dpiui today. I don't have a Beta scheduled, just the haunting notions of unused home pregnancy tests in my bathroom cabinet. I'm doing my best to stay far away from them though. AF is due Fridayish. Ugh I hate when it falls on a weekday. I'd so much rather get crappy news when I can stay in pajama's all day and consume large quantities of - well anything with an astonishingly high caloric count.
You may recognize my story, last ICLW I had a different blog title which included my last name. When I first started my blog, my husband was the only one reading it. Slowly I began gaining readership, and it started to occur to me that I may be giving our future child's privacy away. While Brian and I feel we have nothing to hide as far as our infertility, we do however feel a fierce need to protect our future child(ren). I have no idea where this blog will be in 20 years, but I don't want anything I say to come back and bite me in the ass. We want our child to be able to choose who is aware of their conception, outside of the family and a select few friends of course.
This month we completed our fourth dIUI. The first three were done with no meds, just based on a positive OPK. But my impatience got the best of me, and I insisted on using some meds this round. My RE put me on Letrozole, which produced 2 lovely follicles. I've never really addressed this before, and I know that I only have about a 5% chance, but I am totally fine with twins. The only thing that concerns me is the high risk pregnancy part.
If you're interested in how we got to the Donor path you can check out my obnoxiously detailed timeline. Or here are a few posts that are probably the most significant.
So welcome ICLWer's, I look forward to reading more about you.
30 comments:
Good luck to you this cycle. We conceived out twins in a DIUI cycle.
I'm not here from ICLW, I found your blog yesterday. I wanted to send out lots and lots of support. I am the other half of an azoospermia couple. I know all too well that the roller coaster of IF is so hard and then when you add in third party conception you really get into some deep stuff.
I use to really a really active part of the blog community, but when we conceived via donor IUI I went PWP to protect my husband and future children's privacy. This is their story to tell if and when they want to talk about it to everyone.
I wish you all the best and have added you to my reader. If you are ever interested in reading my blog you or have any questions you can e-mail me at somewhatordinary at gmail.com.I'm always happy to lend a shoulder to another!
I admire that you want to protect the privacy of your future
child(ren). I hope you get a BFP this cycle!!
*ICLW*
Wow very strong not to POAS! Keeping fingers crossed that Friday doesn't bring AF and that you get to celebrate a BFP at the weekend.
Best of luck with this cycle!
ICLW!
Oh, good luck with this cycle! Sounds like a solid decision to change your blog's name.
(ICLW)
Good luck! It's always nice (and not so nice) to be at the cusp of finding out whether the cycle was successful. I'm hoping for a positive for you!
ICLW
How exciting that you're so close to getting to test! I hope this is the month for you. Good luck!
ICLW
The choice to protect your privacy (and that of your future children) is a wise one I think. Of course, now I'm wondering who you 'were' before. :)
Best of luck, and lots of blessings on you with this cycle!
I, too came here from ICLW. I'm rooting for you, and I hope you get to celebrate a BFP this weekend!
I hope AF stays far away from you this Friday! Good luck, and happy ICLW!!
I am wishing you tons of luck for this cycle ! Many prayers are coming your way.
I understand totally about going a little more private especially once your reader status gets higher & higher.
Have a great day ! ~ICLW
There's no such thing as obnoxiously detailed. You're THOROUGH. :)
I have fingers crossed that the meds made all the difference this cycle. Are you having any pg-like symptoms? I hope this is it for you! I know its so difficult trying over and over and getting nothing. I'm sending good thoughts your way and praying AF stays away!
BFP! BFP! BFP! *from the cheering section*
~ICLW
Hey, hope you're hanging in there. You are so right that those PG tests "haunt". It's terrible. I am praying for you this week....and can't WAIT to hear.
Thanks so much for your posts! I'm still feeling good but here's a short list of the symptoms I had in the last 10 days or so (sorry if TMI): (1) sore boobs with sometimes purple nipples; (2) very bloated and very hungry when stomach is empty, (3) feeling very full, very fast when eating, (4) trouble sleeping, waking early, (5) leg cramps and some lower back pain, (6) nauseas a few times in the morning if I didn't eat something before bed; (7) pee smelled weird (gross, I know).
Who knows what was connected. I didn't have 1 or 2 apparent symptoms that were unusual enough to convince me, but with all put together, I was suspicious.
It's just so weird ...
Getting close to testing time. Fingers crossed for you! ICLW
Best of luck this cycle! I had the same results with Femara (2 follies).
Oh I hope you get a BFP this week! And your timeline gives me hope that when I move on to something beyond Clomid (soon) that there's a chance I won't end up with 100 follicles. I'll be back to keep up with your journey.
~ICLW~
We are both soooo close -- praying for you! Hang in there!
GL with your cycle!!!
Praying for a BFP :)
Happy ICLW. Good luck to you.
My fingers and toes are crossed!
Happy ICLW!!! I hope you get a BFP this week, and get to go out and celebrate rather than stuff yourself full of comfort food (although that is pretty yummy too!).
I hope AF stays far away on Friday and you are celebrating a BFP this weekend instead. Good luck!
ICLW
Here from ICLW:
Here's a toast to what I hope will be a successful IUI!
We are using donor eggs and I really agree with you about respecting the future childs privacy. Good luck with your cycle. ICLW
Good luck on this cycle!! And I agree about respecting the child's future privacy. It's a fine line to walk sometimes when trying to decide what goes on the blog in regards to the child.
ICLW
I hope the meds are the extra touch you need to get a positive this month :)
Happy ICLW, i just love these few days. Wishing you the best with this cycle...
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